Month: May 2020

  • Reprieve

    He had wondered if the Darkness would ever leave him. He asked, to no one in particular, about Consciousness, and if it was hostile – so impersonal – devour[ing] to survive (so it is, so it’s always been). Or, perhaps, Consciousness was indifferent, neutral at best? He struggled within himself to find where the Darkness had […]

  • Enough

    He hadn’t felt like this in ten years. He could vividly recall the last time he felt this way, and he remembered how it felt when it seemed like the demon was gone, exorcised. But, it would appear, the Darkness was biding its time, growing, weaving its heavy tentacles throughout his being. Now, he felt […]

  • A Change of Scenery

    According to his sleep-tracking-app, he usually wakes up around 6:30 AM. That hadn’t been his normal for several weeks now. Today was even more atypical. He had been awoken by his puppy, Paddington, barking. Also not typical. After telling his puppy to shhh, he lies in bed, staring at the ceiling — 5:32 AM. He […]

  • How shall we look?

    It isn’t that I don’t want to write, I do, I’m struggling with what to write about. I’m working through emotion or emotions right now. Negative emotions. I label them negative emotions because of the restrictive quality they have to them, tightness of chest, the pressure, and pulsing of my temples, repetition of thoughts that […]

  • Avoidance

    There are a few things that I’ve noticed over the last few days, and it has been that I tend to avoid situations by being busy. A thought enters my mind, something along the lines of, I should eat. I’m going to go eat. Almost immediately, another idea comes my mind, “Yes, I will eat […]

  • Begin again

    Begin again. I haven’t found a way to establish a habit of writing for thirty minutes per day. I fell off the proverbial horse three-days in. That’s OK. Perhaps it is due to my daily meditation practice, but I feel that the concept of begin again has been incredibly useful in my life. What is the […]